la necesidad de pensar

"The need to think..."

I dont know if it thinking has become a necessity or an addiction, all I know I think a lot, I realize a lot, then, after thinking, I realize some more, totally different from the one before. We are starting to find what was lost in another persons eyes, at some point we feel a sense of happiness and contentment, yet, at the back of our heads, we think, why has it come to this. Mixed feelings start to arrive, but it should not be a reason to put oneself in a level below than that of which we are intended.

The begining of another commitment

We always wanted our own space, probably since highschool. The thought of doing things our way in our own pad is for me something really cool. I have experience it before, from just a simple room to an apartment, and it felt nice.

Ofcourse I have a dream house, probably similar to what we had before, even bigger, but now, I just could not afford that. I know a lot of people think my salary is more than what people expect but still we could only afford so much.

Time changes one's priorities in life, for now I have set aside my pride and went to being practical, we will have a chance for our dream house, but for now it will be just as an investment and a place we could call our own.

Another stressful day

Office clutter, the result of either slow working pace or simply overwhelming work load. After a stressful event I hoped for better days ahead, but I was very wrong, everything I expected never really materialized. I was doing more than I could and whats worse is that it is not even my job.

Honestly, My Job isn't the job I imagined, before, I started hoping for the best not knowing what really lies ahead. I hoped for the best and simply did what was needed and enjoyed every working day that I had, but I guess I made a mistake. The situation seems to be deteriorating, instead of the change that I imagined, there are times when I no longer enjoy what I do, what I hear and what I see.

I could wait for something to happen or take things on my own hands, but no matter what I do, the point is I have to do something. The only thing that's holding me back is how to do things wisely taking into consideration factors that would otherwise affect not only my life but others as well.

Human Trial: Typhoon Ondoy

Humans have since time in memorial endures nature with all its violence, but sometimes humans also tend to amplify the damage, and its all done in a slow painful manner. Storms come and go in a country which seems progress as a slow process. I have seen people do stupid things and even at the sight of its consequences, they still continue to be stupid. Our place may never change for the better but we still hope and work hard for the best.

Sometimes

Sometimes we tend to look for a slight change in the way people think about ourselves, especially in times where unexpected trials come our way. Maybe, I failed to realize how unique people can be in the way they think, but sometimes, it would be nice to have a bit of change even for sometimes. A serious note, a hearty laugh, a healthy cry, the combination of which brings about a fruit which provides far more nurishment than anything planted or bought on any store. But, sometimes, maybe we should accept people as the way they are if we are to trully appreciate their presence , but the questione remains, how about ourselves, who would accept us?

Pride and selfishness is nature to people, if we are to remove this from our system what is our assurance that we will receive the same? maybe there is no assurance, just hope that at some point in time, we will receive just the same. Sometimes we hope for things to come our way but its just all hope. Sometimes we think badly, Sometimes we think for the benefit of others, sometimes we think of ourselves, but sometimes we want simple things that no matter how simple, means a lot.